This post is unabashedly incoherent, and I apologize for the rambling, but the other day I was perusing BrainyQuote and stumlbed upon this gem,
Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them – that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like. – Lao Tzu
That’s a great philosophy to have. But I am a fairly passive person, and despite being well aware of this sometimes flaw, sometimes blessing, I don’t ever really make an effort to change. see? so passive! or is that apathetic? The point is, I am bad about waiting for “it” to happen. For inspiration to strike. For some great idea to just plop itself in my head and say, “run with me!”
That is not how it works. Where is my ambition? My drive? My desire to grab life by the horns? My carpe diem instinct? I’m not sure what it will take to see myself as a success in life – a great job, awesome paycheck, really really really good looking children? Who knows. I don’t think you can measure your success while it’s happening. You may never truly feel successful – deciding to be happy in the moment is one thing. When you look back on your life and know you wouldn’t do anything differently, that is the most fortunate outcome. Jenni wrote a great post on last week about what she values as success, and we share a lot of common “requirements.”
It’s something to think about. Is it better to sort of fumble your way through without putting too much pressure on yourself? I compare my life to those around me a little too frequently, and it’s not necessarily because I want what they have (and I’m sure plenty would love to trade lives with me…if they only knew), but it’s just that they have something I don’t. More. Why don’t or why can’t I have that? That sort of thinking will kill you. But there is a difference between setting goals and creating unrealistic expectations for life.
So I think I’ll listen to Lao Tzu on this one, and to quote Doris Day, “que sera, sera.”